tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22504989281786501602024-03-05T05:34:43.458-07:00the way she feels.helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.comBlogger130125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-21159216936052164952017-03-27T01:21:00.001-06:002017-04-03T23:10:32.633-06:00Forced Closure.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Sometimes you can be open and understanding<br />
And you can choose to see the best in someone when no one else will give them<br />
a second glance.<br />
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Sometimes you choose to expose your demons just to help someone<br />
feel okay.<br />
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Sometimes they'll let their guard down so that you<br />
can see their demons too.<br />
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Sometimes you'll share so many moments with just one person<br />
So many ups and downs and in-betweens.<br />
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Sometimes it will feel as if they'll be in your life<br />
Forever.<br />
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Sometimes you will come to expect that they will continue to be there<br />
When no one else knows the demons that haunted you for years.<br />
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But...<br />
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Sometimes they will find something that makes their<br />
Pensive past worth the pain.<br />
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Something that sets their soul on fire in the<br />
<i>Best way possible.</i><br />
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<b>But it won't be you.</b><br />
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Some day they will be happy. So happy that it lights up your soul, as well.<br />
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<b>But it won't be for anything you've done.</b><br />
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And sometimes they will no longer want you to be apart of their journey,<br />
No matter the role you had once played before.<br />
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Your heart may ache, but there's not a damn thing you can do.<br />
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I've never been good at letting go.<br />
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<br />helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-61041283172707539112016-01-05T22:22:00.002-07:002016-01-05T22:23:45.403-07:00Blank.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I don't know who I am anymore.</div>
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I don't know where to turn.</div>
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Perhaps I would be better surrounded by and buried under layers of the earth.</div>
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Perhaps then flowers could grow around my slowly decaying body.</div>
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And perhaps everything would be better.</div>
helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-11856896790298301042015-10-25T15:06:00.002-06:002015-10-25T15:10:02.898-06:00Clean.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I remember how unworthy I felt </div>
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and how heavy the nights could be.</div>
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And today as I unpacked my last box</div>
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and dug through pieces of my past</div>
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my heart went cold.</div>
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I placed that second ring on my middle finger</div>
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and so vividly thought of the girl who used to think</div>
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Just as one of the jewels is missing </div>
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from that second ring</div>
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so was the love from our relationship.</div>
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You used me, I kept my mouth shut.</div>
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Two and a half years later.</div>
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Two men, two rings.</div>
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Both got down on their knees,</div>
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but oh what a difference there is when</div>
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someone actually loves you</div>
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and doesn't demand the worst parts of yourself.</div>
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If I could tell my past self one thing, it is this:</div>
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Be patient and hang on. </div>
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I swear someone is going to love you more than you could ever imagine.</div>
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And he won't demand anything of you, but gooey grilled cheese sandwiches.</div>
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helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-46833374252219077002015-07-21T15:53:00.003-06:002015-07-21T15:55:12.762-06:00(Ir)replaceable.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I was certain I had won.<br />
I had claimed the only thing <br />
that I knew could last a lifetime<br />
and more.<br />
But now it seems that my idea of forever might actually<br />
contain a limited number of days.<br />
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Perhaps nothing does last forever.<br />
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However,<br />
If I could go back in time <br />
I swear I'd pick you, <br />
and only you,<br />
again, and again, and again.<br />
I wouldn't dare trade you,<br />
even if I had the chance.<br />
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I just hope you'd do the same.helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-39764077831051502912015-07-06T15:00:00.001-06:002015-07-06T15:02:01.735-06:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Constantly fighting the wrong types of battles,</div>
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defending the things that brought you misery,</div>
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but sheepishly hoping that perhaps someday</div>
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But you are pushing away the things that have <br />
kept you alive</div>
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because you don't know any better.</div>
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You are a fool in the worst way.</div>
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helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-14979834536496539302015-06-26T16:29:00.000-06:002015-06-26T16:29:09.448-06:00Heavy<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I was a heavy heart to carry<br />My beloved was weighed down<br />My arms around his neck<br />My fingers laced a crown.</div>
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I was a heavy heart to carry<br />But he never let me down<br />When he held me in his arms<br />My feet never touched the ground.</div>
helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-24569124011632326282015-06-15T16:59:00.000-06:002015-06-15T16:59:48.685-06:00Stay. <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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He leaned over and kissed me so deeply, I thought he was kissing my soul. </div>
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"Stay here forever." </div>
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As he kissed me harder, I couldn't tell which way was up and which was down.</div>
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I had been lifted up to a cloud that I never wanted to come down from. </div>
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Okay, sweet boy. I'll do the best I can.</div>
helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-89982121725025674602015-05-26T16:51:00.002-06:002015-05-26T16:53:53.891-06:00Burdens.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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So much weight on such an <strike>small</strike> <em>average</em> frame.</div>
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Every single ounce seems to bring me further down.</div>
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Both mentally and physically.</div>
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Perhaps the number that mocks me on the scale is <em>not</em> the main source </div>
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of weight that is driving me mad.</div>
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Perhaps it is the fact that I have carried so much, too much,</div>
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for too long.</div>
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I am exhausted.</div>
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But I have survived off of the rim of shiny cans, </div>
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and the corners of his smile,</div>
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and the comfort of my bed that's always felt like home.</div>
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But I fear for the day that this is not enough.</div>
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I fear for the day that<em> I</em> am no longer enough.</div>
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You can tell me chivalry isn't dead until you're lungs cave in, but that won't make up for the fact that you slammed the door in my face. <br />
Go ahead and promise me that you won't taint my mind as you victimize my body.<br />
Yell at me and tell me that I need to shape up while you sit there constantly searching for who the hell you are underneath your bitter coating.<br />
Swear that you understand just how deep my pain flows within my veins; I know that you don't have a damn clue.<br />
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I had never truly known pain until you used my biggest flaw against me.<br />
Would you like to have a mind that paralyzes every single move you make?<br />
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They say that you shouldn't judge a book by its cover, but you knew the whole entire story and claimed you didn't judge me.<br />
And maybe you didn't judge me, but you sure as hell knew how to rip every ounce of hope right out of my crippled and broken soul.<br />
Frankly, I would have preferred a little bit of judgment.<br />
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You knew my games and you knew each individual crevice of my dark mind that so many others had no clue about.<br />
You said you'd help me.<br />
You promised to be my rock.<br />
But you turned out to be nothing but a measly little grain of sand.<br />
You used my foundation to build yourself up.<br />
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Never again will your filthy fingers trace the bumps and lines that run up and down my arms and legs.<br />
Someday my soul will heal from the cruelty you put me through.<br />
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And some day my skin will be glowing and brand new.<br />
It will be completely untouched from the toxins within your heart and mind that always crept into your filthy fingertips.<br />
And you won't have had a damn thing to do with it.<br />
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helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-27166609923515302822014-12-29T20:39:00.004-07:002014-12-29T20:39:58.738-07:00Exhaustion.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Sometimes,</div>
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all you can do</div>
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and hope</div>
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you<b> fall apart.</b></div>
<br />helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-15837913280133936962014-08-18T12:25:00.000-06:002015-06-15T16:54:47.749-06:00My love.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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"You know how they say that you shouldn't rely so heavily on someone </div>
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that you can't become your own person? </div>
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Well I can't go a day without him. </div>
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But it's not because I can't be on my own... </div>
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I've known what it's like to be alone, and I know exactly who I am.</div>
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It's because I like who I am so much better with him </div>
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than who I am without him." </div>
helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-27424634554705270842014-06-16T01:46:00.005-06:002014-06-16T01:48:54.840-06:00Change.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I <strike>begged you</strike> tried to get you to compile your dreams into a boring box of reality and shove them far away.</div>
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<i>That's not realistic</i>.</div>
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I said it over and over and over until finally, your gentle voice turned cold and started to agree with me.</div>
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I never really expected you to listen to me, or heed my counsel. </div>
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<strike>And oh how I wish you wouldn't. </strike></div>
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I never thought I'd hear the distress in your voice overcome the exciting emotions that have constantly stirred in your heart and danced around your chaotic mind for so many months.</div>
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And perhaps I was foolish and let myself dream too far and too quickly, just like you claimed.</div>
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And while I don't want to react in the way that a naive and theatrical school girl would, I must admit that it feels as if there has been a distance set between the present and our future.</div>
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<i>As if we needed anymore distance between us. I truly believe 703 miles is enough.</i></div>
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I have to contain these feelings in small menacing cages until we reach a more appropriate time in our lives.</div>
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<i>Whenever that may be. </i></div>
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I can't help but look at your shirts a midst my never-ending piles of laundry,</div>
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and pray that someday I'll hear the rustle of your feet in the other room</div>
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while I gently fold all of your clothes in the living room.</div>
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You'll come up behind me and gently rest your chin upon my shoulder and simply say,</div>
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<i>"We made it, love. We finally made it."</i> </div>
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But for now I will simply drape your big white t-shirt over my body every night and pray that it can hold me together. </div>
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helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-30212595264139659072014-03-08T22:03:00.001-07:002014-03-08T22:04:12.113-07:00Bones.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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All I've ever wanted </div>
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was for your damn arms </div>
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to wrap themselves around me </div>
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<i>you're the prettiest thing my heart has ever known.</i><br />
<b><i>Come and lay your bones down with me.</i></b></div>
helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-23360367590975075402013-12-30T00:12:00.005-07:002013-12-30T00:12:59.311-07:00Love is Patient. (Right?)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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"<b style="font-style: italic;">He</b> left with my heart.</div>
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They <u>both</u> walked through <i>that door</i> </div>
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<b>without me.</b>"</div>
helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-56949318833058540222013-12-27T15:15:00.000-07:002013-12-27T18:36:02.218-07:00This Loneliness Won't Last.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #343434; line-height: 21px;">“</span><span class="quote" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; color: #343434; line-height: 21px; outline: none 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility;">I remember<i> all too well</i> who I was a year ago. </span></span></div>
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<span class="quote" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; color: #343434; font-family: inherit; line-height: 21px; outline: none 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility;"> And I <i>swear</i> I hear your laugh when the room gets silent, </span></div>
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helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-15384113726064435072013-12-23T00:22:00.002-07:002013-12-23T00:22:25.783-07:00I'm Not Going Away. <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<i>I'm going to find my way back to your side.</i></div>
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I <b>swear</b> I will. </div>
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helloxbeautifulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18309775885282487217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2250498928178650160.post-75446819554223726312013-12-16T20:37:00.001-07:002013-12-16T20:37:57.180-07:00False hearts. <div style="text-align: center;">
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The words felt <i>so</i> heavy in my throat.</div>
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It's as if they <b>didn't</b> want to come out. </div>
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But this is how it had to be, <i>certainly it was meant to be.</i></div>
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At least that's what<b> he</b> told me.</div>
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I shuffled my feet and looked at the ground.</div>
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<i>"You are so much better than him." </i></div>
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The words painfully <b>lurched</b> out of my mouth, </div>
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and the pit in my stomach grew<b> larger and larger.</b> </div>
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"He'll never be <b>half </b>of the man that you are."</div>
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<i><u><b>Lies.</b></u></i></div>
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My heart sunk into my toes. </div>
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I had <i><b>never</b></i> heard anything so <strike>false and repulsive.</strike></div>
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There was absolutely <i><b>no</b></i> sincerity behind my words.</div>
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I couldn't say anything more. </div>
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He glanced at me with such hope, but as soon as I lifted my head and </div>
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he looked at my eyes, his excitement <i>slowly faded.</i></div>
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I tried to hide my confusion, but I couldn't. </div>
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<i>I thought this was how it was going to be. </i></div>
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As I looked into his eyes, I was overcome with</div>
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such a <b>strong emotion </b>of <i>pure and sincere love.</i></div>
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I thought my heart was going to burst<b> right out of my chest. </b></div>
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It's as if the act of my lies brought about so much truth.</div>
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Truth that I had tried so hard to ignore.</div>
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But the love I felt wasn't for the boy sitting in front of me.<br />
I wasn't in the right place <i>at all.</i></div>
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I stared at the musty green table and I knew</div>
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from that moment on that<b> I would never be the same.</b></div>
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I knew that we wouldn't make it through the winter.<br />
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I knew that the boy I <i><b>truly</b></i> loved</div>
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<i><b>I</b></i> broke the chains that you had wrapped so tightly around every single one my limbs.</div>
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Day by day, <i><b>I </b></i>finally gathered up enough strength to sever every single tie that was connected to you. </div>
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It wasn't easy, but it was so beautifully worth it.</div>
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I'm going to wear that black blazer you made fun of.</div>
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I'm going to go out in public in yoga pants, a t-shirt and running shoes.</div>
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I'm going to eat all of the Chinese food I want to. </div>
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I'm going to sing Miley Cyrus until I'm blue in the face, if I feel like it. </div>
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I'm going to tell the truth in every way possible, and will no longer lie for you.</div>
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I'm going to call my Mother every single day, if I feel like it. And I will feel no guilt.</div>
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I'm going to keep writing Tyson, and not hold anything back.</div>
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I'm going to study at my apartment when I want to.</div>
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because <b>I am no longer under your control.</b></div>
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I never envisioned myself missing you this much. Of all people, I thought our conversations would dull with time.</div>
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<i>That would have been so much easier.</i></div>
<i> </i>It's become the opposite. With each passing day, and with every written letter, the words grow deeper; the weight of the envelope in my hands become heavier and heavier.<br />
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There's a lot I could say, but to put it simply, </div>
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<i>Hurry home.</i></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b>"I fell in love with you when there was snow on the ground."</b></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Right now and <i>always.</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><b>Remember this.</b></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">There is a person out there who can <strike>erase</strike> <i>everyone</i> else.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Who can make up for <u><b><i>any</i></b></u> bad thing<i> anyone</i> has ever done to you.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">There is a person who will completely be</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><b>everything</b> you want, <b>everything</b> you <u>need.</u></span></div>
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<u style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Who will love you for <b>exactly</b> who you are</u><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">They will be <b>perfect</b> in every way because</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><i>they just <b>are.</b></i> You will not want to change</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">for the <i>first time</i> in your life full of changing your</span></div>
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<i style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">It will all be finally clear and simple.</i></div>
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<b style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">No more searching for <u>home.</u></b></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">You'll know when you get there, <i>how couldn't you?</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Sure, it's what we all <i>want. </i>Sure, I'm making this <i>seem</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">easy. But <b>trust me</b>, <u>I know it's not</u>, but settling for</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><i><b><u>anything</u> </b>but</i> the <b>constant butterflies</b> and <b>never-ending smiles.</b></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><u>Don't</u> live your life wondering, if you made the right choice.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Staring at <i>every </i>man that walks by and thinking about<i> what</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><i>it would be like </i>to have them,<b> <u>don't</u> think that.</b> <i>Sure </i>it's <b>easy</b></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">to try and be <i>reasonable, practical,</i> find someone who is a</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><u>really good</u> match, <b>take a good seat</b> instead of <i>waiting in line</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">for years for the <b>best one.</b> </span><u style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">But this is <b>the most important decision</b> </u><u style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">you will <i>ever</i> make.</u><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"> </span></div>
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<em>inside and out <strong>[they're] better than I am.</strong></em></div>
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The first time I listened to it and it got to this part, I bawled.</div>
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I didn't know what was wrong with me.</div>
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I soon realized it was because I knew my Dad had the potential </div>
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I miss him <strong>a lot,</strong> lately.</div>
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I don't have very many friends, anymore.</div>
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Things get worse every single day.</div>
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I know he'd be my best friend, if he could.</div>
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<em>Please</em> just shape up, Daddy.</div>
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It was all such a <strike><i>mess. </i></strike></div>
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I didn't want to believe that it was all happening.</div>
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But the whispers grew into piercing cries full of mockery and ridicule.</div>
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I spent so many sleepless nights trying to come up with a solution.</div>
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<b>A new idea.</b></div>
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<i>A different way.</i></div>
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Something to get the voices of hate to turn back to the way they were before:</div>
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Encouraging, kind, and patient.</div>
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But it's amazing what a little bit of time and insecurity can do.</div>
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It can turn the sweetest souls into the <strike>vilest creatures.</strike></div>
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3 a.m. began to feel like home. </div>
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My own home was a war zone, with <i>deep, endless battle scars </i>lining each and every wall;</div>
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my walls knew far more about me than any other person.</div>
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My Mother's heart had grown<b><i> so </i></b>weary, and I couldn't hardly lift her spirits, anymore.</div>
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Just the mere thought of school sent a chill up my spine.</div>
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School work was hard enough, I didn't need the sadistic laughter and destructive rumors.</div>
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The one place I thought I could rely on to provide some stability proved only to fail me,</div>
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A group of immature faces that I had known for years, some since birth, gathered around me.</div>
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Once one boy began the jokes, another joined in.</div>
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Soon, nearly everyone in the room was turned toward me, pointing fingers and exuding their mockery from every single inch of their body.</div>
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Effortlessly, I begged for them to see how it really was,</div>
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but <u>nobody understands anymore.</u></div>
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<b>Nobody cares <i>that</i> much. </b></div>
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I looked amidst the faces, just praying that I would find someone to defend me.</div>
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I had one face in particular that I knew I could count on.</div>
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Yet, there she stood in all of her glory; my best friend, pointing and laughing, just as the others were.</div>
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My chest caved in, to the point that I couldn't quite remember how to breathe or speak.</div>
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I just wanted to run away and sob.<br />
<strike>All of my efforts had failed.</strike><br />
In fact, they had backfired and smacked me <i>right back </i>in the face.<br />
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Through what seemed to be endless tears, I begged my Mother to never make me go back.<br />
I threw out realistic soltuions as my soul grew so painfully weary and tired.<br />
Once I regained control of the pools of tears pouring from my face,<br />
<b>I told the only person left, that I trusted.</b><br />
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I was scared he might think I was so foolish for making such a big deal about a seemingly small issue.<br />
Instead, he listened so intently and sincerely.<br />
He told me that we didn't need to stay for the evening,<br />
and we began driving, with no set destination.<br />
<i>All I knew was that I had to get away from this hell hole.</i><br />
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As the evening began to die down, I thought I had finally come to terms with my emotions.<br />
But my phone became illuminated with a message from my Father that provided hope, but pushed me right back over the edge.<br />
Before I knew it, we were on the side of a random road, with the car off, and I was sobbing to the point that I couldn't even keep up with the tears falling off of my cheeks.<br />
<u><i>Stop crying.</i></u><br />
I told myself over, and over, and over again.<br />
But I <i>couldn't </i>stop.<br />
I couldn't hardly speak more than two words before my breath was completely taken away from my lungs, and more tears began to fall.<br />
However, so many things were running through my head, I probably wouldn't have made sense, anyway.<br />
All I could seem to muddle out was,<br />
<b>"I don't know. I don't know what to do. I just don't know."</b><br />
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Lately, I don't know much of <i>anything.</i><br />
I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow.<br />
I don't know if my Mom is going to make it.<br />
I don't know where my Dad is truly staying.<br />
I don't know if I'm going to make it through this year.<br />
I don't know if I truly have any friends, left.<br />
<b>Running away from everyone is the only thing I seem to be good at, anymore.</b><br />
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<i>But, </i>I have a person to trust and love, who loves <b><i>me. </i></b><br />
And that's all I know, with <b>absolute </b>certainty. <b><i> </i> </b></div>
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Sometimes I think that time passes by <em>far too quickly.</em> </div>
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<strong>7 months ago</strong> I met you, and you drove me absolutely insane.</div>
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<strong>4 months ago</strong> You admitted you liked me, and we went on our first date.</div>
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<em>Then I broke your heart. And left you on your own for a month.</em></div>
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But here we are, <em>together</em>, <strong>2 months later.</strong></div>
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I feel like I've known you for years, yet I feel like we've just barely gotten to know each other.</div>
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It hasn't been an easy process. <br />
There's been a lot of suffering and tumltuous trials throughout these seemingly short two months. </div>
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People have violated my privacy on unspeakable levels and many have protested against the mere idea of our relationship.</div>
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<em>But they don't know how it is.</em></div>
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They don't know how great it is to hold your hand when we go to the store.</div>
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They don't know how beautifully comforting your smile is when I've had an incredibly hard day.</div>
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They don't know how wonderfully you treat me each and every day. </div>
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They don't know how happy your laugh makes me, even if I'm not the one making you laugh.</div>
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They simply don't understand <em>how I feel about you</em>.</div>
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I know you're not perfect.</div>
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But I swear you're perfect for me. <br />
And they just don't get that.</div>
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Although your Dad may think I'm satan, and my best friend might want to punch you in the throat, </div>
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I'm glad that you've stuck by me for as long as you have.</div>
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I know that we constantly bicker about how quickly we want the time to pass...</div>
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<strong>But perhaps it's a blessing in disguise. </strong></div>
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Maybe we need the extra time.</div>
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Things are going to get hard.</div>
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They've been hard.</div>
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<em>Thank you for staying with me, even though you had every reason not to.</em></div>
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It was absolute torture to sit there and dreadfully watch lifeless bubbles pop on and off of the blaring cell phone screen. <br />He was in pain, and I couldn't help him or comfort him.</div>
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I had a million other things to do: <br />Finish the essays.</div>
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Run to the classroom.</div>
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<em>Fix your make-up, you look barbaric.</em></div>
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Be a good friend.</div>
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<strong>Help your Mother.</strong></div>
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Drive to Walmart. </div>
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Drive back from Walmart.</div>
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Run to Roxberry. </div>
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And then <em><strong>finally</strong></em>, I arrived. </div>
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He didn't look nearly as bad as most people do, but I could see the distress and exhaustion within his beautiful blue eyes. I instantly wanted to keep him beside me for days, until he finally felt better. </div>
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We crawled up on the large bed and laid gently beside each other, while watching movies that filled my childhood, and enhanced my youth. </div>
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As I got closer to him, I couldn't stop my mind from racing to the future.</div>
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<em>What if this is how it would be forever?</em></div>
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<em>What if this really is the person I'm supposed to be with?</em></div>
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The longer I laid beside him, the more I realized how badly I wanted <strong>this</strong> in my future. </div>
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Not only <strong>this</strong>, I wanted <em>him. </em></div>
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It was hard not to watch him all of the time, while I was supposed to be staring at the screen. </div>
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I've always been taught that it's not polite to stare, but he was just so remarkable to me. Everything about him was so beautiful. </div>
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<em>How I could <strong>not</strong> stare?</em></div>
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Every single freckle on his face just made me love him more. </div>
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I could quite honestly stare at him for hours, and never get bored.</div>
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Occasionally he would glance at me. </div>
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Sometimes he would gently kiss my cheek or my forehead.</div>
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While selfishly enjoying these gestures of affection, I thought to myself,</div>
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<em>Shouldn't I be doing this, for him?</em></div>
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After all, he was the one in pain. </div>
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I would do the same to him, yet he would still continue to do the same to me.</div>
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Despite my efforts, I realized that's just who he is. </div>
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No matter the well-being of his physical state, he would still be sweet to me. </div>
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That's just the way he loves me. </div>
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Due to severe stress and exhaustion, I caught myself falling asleep when I got too comfortable and too close to him. <em>I couldn't stop myself.</em></div>
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At one point my, with my eyes closed, he gently stroked my cheek and then softly kissed it. </div>
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<em>"You're so beautiful", </em>he whispered.</div>
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And if only for five seconds, I believed it. </div>
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I believed it with every fiber of my being.</div>
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But, only beause that is how he made me feel...</div>
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<em>Absolutely beautiful.</em></div>
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