long were the nights when my days once revolved around you.

You told me you loved me,

so why did you go away?

I do recall now, the smell of the rain,

fresh on the pavement.

I can still feel your arms

All that I know is I don't know

how to be something you miss.

I never imagined we'd end like this

So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep.

And I feel you will forget me like I used to feel you breathe...

I'll keep up with our old friends,

just to ask them how you are.

I hope the sun shines, and it's a beautiful day,

and something reminds you that you wish you had stayed.

You can plan for a change in the weather and time...

But, I never planned on you changing your mind.

i can't go through a single day anymore without thinking of you, or wishing more than anything that you were still here. almost every little single thing i see, and everywhere i go, there's something that reminds me about you. it makes my heart ache, and sometimes almost brings tears to my eyes.

reminders of you:

-school. people at school. classes. everything dealing with school.

-pier 49.

-cinemark.

-snoasis. even just the old hollow building that it turns into during the winter.

-the cemetery.

-papa murphy's commercials.

-seattle.

-twilight.

-volvos.

-suburbans.

-cotton candy. the actual stuff, the smell, flavorings, etc.

-david archuleta.

-lemonade.

-vitamin water.

-modern houses.

-shows on hgtv.

-home architectures.

-the piano.

-johnny depp.

-fish.

-happiness.

-the busy intersection by kohler's.

-imogen heap.

-death cab for cutie.

-driver's ed textbooks.

-wal-mart.

-italian ice.

-old couples.

-couples in general.

-salt lake.

-oreos.

-smith's.

-dish soap.

-the sound of your voice echoing throughout the hallways.

-the thought of your smile.

believe me, this list could go on for hours.

people say you've changed.

people tell me i'm so much better off without you.

yes, i can see that. that's the only reason i got so upset and forced myself to walk away. while i may blame myself for letting you go... i had no choice. you invaded my soul with so much darkness and despair... i couldn't let you control me anymore. i just had to break free...

but as of right now...

i'd rather have you here, even if it meant it would cause me sadness.

everything reminds me of you, and i can't handle it anymore.

i want to let go of you, and set myself free.

but i just can't...

i love you too much...