i can't go through a single day anymore without thinking of you, or wishing more than anything that you were still here. almost every little single thing i see, and everywhere i go, there's something that reminds me about you. it makes my heart ache, and sometimes almost brings tears to my eyes.
reminders of you:
-school. people at school. classes. everything dealing with school.
-snoasis. even just the old hollow building that it turns into during the winter.
-papa murphy's commercials.
-cotton candy. the actual stuff, the smell, flavorings, etc.
-shows on hgtv.
-the busy intersection by kohler's.
-death cab for cutie.
-driver's ed textbooks.
-couples in general.
-the sound of your voice echoing throughout the hallways.
-the thought of your smile.
believe me, this list could go on for hours.
people say you've changed.
people tell me i'm so much better off without you.
yes, i can see that. that's the only reason i got so upset and forced myself to walk away. while i may blame myself for letting you go... i had no choice. you invaded my soul with so much darkness and despair... i couldn't let you control me anymore. i just had to break free...
but as of right now...
i'd rather have you here, even if it meant it would cause me sadness.
everything reminds me of you, and i can't handle it anymore.
i want to let go of you, and set myself free.
but i just can't...
i love you too much...